From contracting all night on Friday night, to being still most of the day on Saturday until about 2:30 p.m. when the contractions picked up again. Finally at around 1:00 a.m. Sunday morning I couldn't take the pain anymore, so off to the hospital we went. Fully expecting to be sent back home (hopefully with pain medication) we were shocked to find out I was dilated to 5 cm and 90% effaced, I was not leaving the hospital. After being taken to the labor and delivery room, the contractions stopped for several hours, which made it wonderful to rest.
Around 8:00 a.m. they started me on pitocin, (which was not my friend) and got the contractions going again. By the time I got to 7 cm, I could no longer tolerate the pain and felt sick and like I was going to pass out, so I felt the need to get an epidural. Soon it was time to deliver our precious baby. Everything was going great, the baby was in perfect alignment, until they started monitoring the baby's little heartbeat again. He has never liked being monitored and decided to do a flip in order to get away. So now this little stinker was breach and backwards. It was time to make some decisions, try to deliver breach or do a C-section. After discussing the different options we decided that the best medical decision was to deliver backwards and breach. (On Friday, when I was at my doctor's appointment I was talking with my doctor and his wife and at that time his wife shared that she was born breach. I know now that God allowed me to hear this to make me feel comfortable and at peace with delivering this way and that it wouldn't cause harm to my baby).
Now many of you are thinking, she delivered the baby breach and face up!?! Yes, it was so much fun! (Remember, I was numb from mid stomach on down). We didn't know if the baby was Joshua or Anaiah, but while delivering we were able to find out first that we had a baby Joshua!!! Joshua weighed 4 lbs and 13 oz and was 18 1/4" long. He had reddish brown hair (not much) and hazel eyes with red eyelashes. He had Jon's forehead the shape of his nose, but with my bump that is in the middle of my nose. The most perfectly shaped lips, just as red as can be. His head was perfectly shaped, but his poor little bottom was bruised from all the pushing. He was so peaceful and beautiful. (or should I say handsome since he is a boy?) =)
We were able to spend the most beautiful hour with our precious baby boy. As tears of joy and thankfulness ran down our face and our family's faces we just enjoyed every second with him, taking pictures. Oh how thankful I am for my cousin's wife, Kelsi being beside us every step of the way documenting the delivery and Joshua's short but wonderful life. We were even able to take an extended family picture together, which is a miracle in itself because my poor dad got sick with the flu and had to go home that morning.
When Joshua took his beautiful last breath, we as a family gathered around, laid hands on Joshua and prayed over him, thanking God for his life and ended with singing: I love you Lord, and I lift my voice. To worship you, oh my soul rejoice. Take joy my King, in what you hear. May it be a sweet, sweet sound in your ear. Even though it was sung with tears being choked back, I know it was a beautiful sound in His ear.
I can't even describe what a joyful, peaceful,amazing and absolute blessing this delivery was. We had been praying ahead of time for the Holy Spirit to go before us and prepare the way for this delivery including preparing my body for delivery. We prayed against the spirit of fear, doubt and death that they had no place in the waiting room and in the delivery room, being around us or the people we loved. When we arrived at the hospital all we had was the perfect peace of God. The first nurse we met reminded us of a friend from church not only by physical characteristics and mannerisms but also with her kind and upbeat spirit, which was so comforting. All the nurses and doctors were absolutely amazing. Having parents with us in the delivery room (while laboring) and family and friends in the waiting room praying was just like we wanted, feeling every single prayer, listening to worship music and singing, having Pastor Debbie encouraging and talking me through each contraction has left us in awe of God. The best past of all was the delivery. Oh how we all just laughed through each contraction and push. (I missed some of the opportunities to push because we were all laughing so hard, it was hard to catch our breath). Our parents in the hallway felt like they were missing out on a party with all the loud laughter they heard. This delivery had God in the center of it and I believe that this is the way God intended childbirth to be. Just a time of celebrating Him and His love for us while He gives us the precious gift of life.
We were able to keep Joshua with us for as long as we wanted. We were able to allow family and friends to spend time with him, even though he already went to heaven to be with his Abba Father. This truly was a great experience and God answered so many prayers. He truly is faithful and true.
Thank you all for everything. For traveling this journey with us. It's not over. God is just getting started with using Joshua's life. It already has brought so much good...it's now going to get better. We felt that God lead us to the name of Joshua Ezekiel for a reason. His name means, God rescues and God strengthens. We know that God did just that. Joshua wasn't suppose to live to full term. There was a good possibility that if he did make it to full term that we wouldn't be able to spend time with him alive. God did rescue him and strengthened him so we could meet him, kiss him and tell him how much we love him. And then He took him home to love and care for him unlike we could ever do hear on earth.
With that said, it doesn't mean that we aren't sad and even disappointed. But God has given us such a HUGE gift already. He is good ALL the time. We know that our life has now been forever changed. That we just need to take this new road a day at a time, even a second or minute at a time. When we feel like we can't walk anymore, Jesus will be there to carry us through.
We will be finalizing the arrangements today and will post them later. Thank you again from the bottom of our hearts for everything. We love you!!!! Love, Jonathan, Kristin and baby Joshua
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Friday, February 26, 2010
Update 2/26/2010 Soon than Later
Baby LeVan may be here sooner than later.
This past week I've just been really tired and emotional. It's not that my faith is changing or getting weaker, but I've realized that for the past 18 weeks all I've done to prepare for this baby is pray and focus on God, which has been great, but I don't even know where to begin with anything else. I hadn't even packed my bags until this morning (because of the contractions I was having. I’m also scheduled to have pregnancy pictures taken this afternoon…not a minute to soon I might add). It's amazing, but I don't think that I would want it any other way.
Last night Jon wasn't home, so I just took a bath and listened to praise and worship music, praising God, praying and crying...good tears...just tears of being in awe of God and tears of being tired and needing to be carried. It was a great time and am so glad that I got this opportunity to spend some good alone time with God. Plus it got me ready for today.
Last night I was awoken every 15 minutes with contractions all night long. Now that I'm awake and moving around, they have subsided. I had to call the doctor at 6:30 a.m. (I’ll leave details out). He said that he thinks that this baby will be coming sooner than later. I wasn't scared or filled with fear...just peace and excitement.
I had my normal doctor’s appointment today and well…I’m 2 cm dilated. He thinks that my body did all of that just last night, so he thinks that I’m going to go really fast once this baby decides to come. The baby is in good alignment, good heart beat and he said he’s expecting to hear from me really soon. (So, I’m thinking oh, sometime next week. Well, when he said I won’t be surprised if I hear from you tonight, I started to cry. YES, I cried…I don’t handle change very well and it was a bit unexpected to hear the words TONIGHT…hahahaha). We are excited…very excited.
So, if you could remember to keep us in your prayers we'd greatly appreciate it. I know that there will be struggles emotionally, physically and mentally still to come, but God is good and ALWAYS faithful and true.
So, this is just a little heads up...we'll fill you in later of any changes...but for now, only time will tell.
Love, Jon and Kristin
P.S. you can pass this info on to anyone you'd like. More people praying the better.
P.S.S.: WHO IS WELCOME TO COME TO THE HOSPITAL: Anyone who wants to come to the hospital to pray and wait with our family is welcome. We will be calling our parents first and then they will start contacting others on the phone tree. When you get the phone call that we are heading to the hospital feel free to call, facebook, e-mail anyone and everyone and let them know that we are at the hospital. The more people praying the better.
We are asking that everyone who is waiting at the hospital have a positive attitude and not focus on the previous medical diagnosis that was given to the baby. We believe that God has healed our baby already. Most importantly, have fun and praise God during this time.
DIRECTIONS: We will be having the baby at Memorial Hospital in South Bend, IN. You will want to follow the signs towards the emergency room. DO NOT turn into the parking garage by the Emergency Room Entrance!!! (You will want this parking garage, just don't enter there) Go strait until the stop sign and turn right. Take this street to the next place you can turn right to go into the parking garage. You will get a ticket…bring it into the hospital with you. Go to the 3rd Floor. This is the labor and delivery unit. There will be a lady at the desk that will stamp your parking ticket so you don’t have to pay.
Thank you all for everything. Love, Jon and Kristin
This past week I've just been really tired and emotional. It's not that my faith is changing or getting weaker, but I've realized that for the past 18 weeks all I've done to prepare for this baby is pray and focus on God, which has been great, but I don't even know where to begin with anything else. I hadn't even packed my bags until this morning (because of the contractions I was having. I’m also scheduled to have pregnancy pictures taken this afternoon…not a minute to soon I might add). It's amazing, but I don't think that I would want it any other way.
Last night Jon wasn't home, so I just took a bath and listened to praise and worship music, praising God, praying and crying...good tears...just tears of being in awe of God and tears of being tired and needing to be carried. It was a great time and am so glad that I got this opportunity to spend some good alone time with God. Plus it got me ready for today.
Last night I was awoken every 15 minutes with contractions all night long. Now that I'm awake and moving around, they have subsided. I had to call the doctor at 6:30 a.m. (I’ll leave details out). He said that he thinks that this baby will be coming sooner than later. I wasn't scared or filled with fear...just peace and excitement.
I had my normal doctor’s appointment today and well…I’m 2 cm dilated. He thinks that my body did all of that just last night, so he thinks that I’m going to go really fast once this baby decides to come. The baby is in good alignment, good heart beat and he said he’s expecting to hear from me really soon. (So, I’m thinking oh, sometime next week. Well, when he said I won’t be surprised if I hear from you tonight, I started to cry. YES, I cried…I don’t handle change very well and it was a bit unexpected to hear the words TONIGHT…hahahaha). We are excited…very excited.
So, if you could remember to keep us in your prayers we'd greatly appreciate it. I know that there will be struggles emotionally, physically and mentally still to come, but God is good and ALWAYS faithful and true.
So, this is just a little heads up...we'll fill you in later of any changes...but for now, only time will tell.
Love, Jon and Kristin
P.S. you can pass this info on to anyone you'd like. More people praying the better.
P.S.S.: WHO IS WELCOME TO COME TO THE HOSPITAL: Anyone who wants to come to the hospital to pray and wait with our family is welcome. We will be calling our parents first and then they will start contacting others on the phone tree. When you get the phone call that we are heading to the hospital feel free to call, facebook, e-mail anyone and everyone and let them know that we are at the hospital. The more people praying the better.
We are asking that everyone who is waiting at the hospital have a positive attitude and not focus on the previous medical diagnosis that was given to the baby. We believe that God has healed our baby already. Most importantly, have fun and praise God during this time.
DIRECTIONS: We will be having the baby at Memorial Hospital in South Bend, IN. You will want to follow the signs towards the emergency room. DO NOT turn into the parking garage by the Emergency Room Entrance!!! (You will want this parking garage, just don't enter there) Go strait until the stop sign and turn right. Take this street to the next place you can turn right to go into the parking garage. You will get a ticket…bring it into the hospital with you. Go to the 3rd Floor. This is the labor and delivery unit. There will be a lady at the desk that will stamp your parking ticket so you don’t have to pay.
Thank you all for everything. Love, Jon and Kristin
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Update 02/19/2010
Dear Friends,
Thank you so much for you faithful prayers and words of encouragement. I know that I say this over and over again, but you have no idea of what they mean to us. You may think that you're just doing small kind gesture like sending a note in the mail but you have no idea how your act of love and kindness becomes so much more. God's perfect timing in the delivery of that note is unbelievable. So many times we have had a day that we are just tired and drained and your words written with truth and love just carry us through. The same goes for your prayers. When the Holy Spirit brings us to mind and you pray, we feel them, every single one of them. Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU!!!
This week one of my very good friends had her precious little baby. I was surprised to get the phone call last Monday morning hearing that baby Kate had arrived and two weeks early. Oh how my heart rejoiced. My friend was two weeks a head of me. We were so excited to be pregnant together and still was, but I know the diagnosis that was given to my baby did change things. So, to my dear friend, I just want to thank you for your love and support that you've given and continue to give. I know that this has not been easy on you for one minute. I know that it placed an extra burden on you during a time when you didn't need it along with additional fear for your own baby that you were caring. I love you and am so happy for you and your family. Please tell your sweet little Kate that just because she's an early bird doesn't mean her little friend is coming two weeks early too. =) It was great getting to hold little Kate in my arms and just start off the week with seeing and holding the gift of new life that God gives. Thank you for allowing us to share this with you!!!
And just like that, the week continued on a good note even with my doctor's appointment yesterday. Nothing has changed diagnosis wise. The baby still had a good strong heartbeat, I'm growing and am right on track. But the doctor sat down and looked at me and said "congratulations, on Sunday, you'll be full term. I honestly didn't think you'd make it this far." All I could say was thank you God for this miracle...it's ALL HIM!!! (I almost started crying) He said "I can't change anything with the diagnosis, so that is still out there, but you've made it farther than I had thought and you are full term and could have this baby at anytime". I asked him if he could stop saying that I was full term until I finished cleaning my house. I really need to get that done. He said that if it made me feel better that he'd refrain from saying those words to me until I give him the go ahead...so maybe in a week or two I'll allow him to say those wonderful words, but until then...I've got work to do. Haha.
After the doctor's appointment I called my mom and shared the news with her. I told her about the little miracle that God has given us. I think that she is really ready to meet her grandchild because she asked me what time she should show up at my house to help clean...hmmm...it leaves me with the question, does she want to help or does she think that once my house is clean then this baby will come? Thank you mom for your steadfast support, never doubting and being so strong through this journey. Thank you for pushing me to keep my focus on God, His Word and His promises. It means more than you know. I love you.
Before I close, I want to share a thought with you. Above I wrote about telling my mom about the "little miracle" God has given by allowing me to make it to full term. After I said that to her, it made me wonder should I have really said that? Does God really do little miracles or are they all big because they are a miracle and only God can give them? I still don't know the answer to that one, but making it to full term is a HUGE miracle...not a small one like I said. God is so faithful and His love for us is more than we could ever know.
Only three more weeks to go. In my heart, I really feel that I will be very close to my due date. If I go a couple of days late, I will be perfectly content and at peace with that. (If that day comes early, I may have a hard time adjusting to this idea and it may throw me into a state of panic). I know God's timing is perfect...this is all in God's hands and I'm at peace with that. There is no better place to be.
Thank you again for everything. Love, Kristin
Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1 ;)
Thank you so much for you faithful prayers and words of encouragement. I know that I say this over and over again, but you have no idea of what they mean to us. You may think that you're just doing small kind gesture like sending a note in the mail but you have no idea how your act of love and kindness becomes so much more. God's perfect timing in the delivery of that note is unbelievable. So many times we have had a day that we are just tired and drained and your words written with truth and love just carry us through. The same goes for your prayers. When the Holy Spirit brings us to mind and you pray, we feel them, every single one of them. Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU!!!
This week one of my very good friends had her precious little baby. I was surprised to get the phone call last Monday morning hearing that baby Kate had arrived and two weeks early. Oh how my heart rejoiced. My friend was two weeks a head of me. We were so excited to be pregnant together and still was, but I know the diagnosis that was given to my baby did change things. So, to my dear friend, I just want to thank you for your love and support that you've given and continue to give. I know that this has not been easy on you for one minute. I know that it placed an extra burden on you during a time when you didn't need it along with additional fear for your own baby that you were caring. I love you and am so happy for you and your family. Please tell your sweet little Kate that just because she's an early bird doesn't mean her little friend is coming two weeks early too. =) It was great getting to hold little Kate in my arms and just start off the week with seeing and holding the gift of new life that God gives. Thank you for allowing us to share this with you!!!
And just like that, the week continued on a good note even with my doctor's appointment yesterday. Nothing has changed diagnosis wise. The baby still had a good strong heartbeat, I'm growing and am right on track. But the doctor sat down and looked at me and said "congratulations, on Sunday, you'll be full term. I honestly didn't think you'd make it this far." All I could say was thank you God for this miracle...it's ALL HIM!!! (I almost started crying) He said "I can't change anything with the diagnosis, so that is still out there, but you've made it farther than I had thought and you are full term and could have this baby at anytime". I asked him if he could stop saying that I was full term until I finished cleaning my house. I really need to get that done. He said that if it made me feel better that he'd refrain from saying those words to me until I give him the go ahead...so maybe in a week or two I'll allow him to say those wonderful words, but until then...I've got work to do. Haha.
After the doctor's appointment I called my mom and shared the news with her. I told her about the little miracle that God has given us. I think that she is really ready to meet her grandchild because she asked me what time she should show up at my house to help clean...hmmm...it leaves me with the question, does she want to help or does she think that once my house is clean then this baby will come? Thank you mom for your steadfast support, never doubting and being so strong through this journey. Thank you for pushing me to keep my focus on God, His Word and His promises. It means more than you know. I love you.
Before I close, I want to share a thought with you. Above I wrote about telling my mom about the "little miracle" God has given by allowing me to make it to full term. After I said that to her, it made me wonder should I have really said that? Does God really do little miracles or are they all big because they are a miracle and only God can give them? I still don't know the answer to that one, but making it to full term is a HUGE miracle...not a small one like I said. God is so faithful and His love for us is more than we could ever know.
Only three more weeks to go. In my heart, I really feel that I will be very close to my due date. If I go a couple of days late, I will be perfectly content and at peace with that. (If that day comes early, I may have a hard time adjusting to this idea and it may throw me into a state of panic). I know God's timing is perfect...this is all in God's hands and I'm at peace with that. There is no better place to be.
Thank you again for everything. Love, Kristin
Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1 ;)
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Update 02/05/2010
Thank you all so much for your prayers and encouraging words. To be completely honest as the time grows closer to March 16th I find the attack that is taking place on my mind by the enemy getting stronger. If something in my body changes I find myself full of panic thinking back to the medical diagnosis that was given in late October instead of taking a deep breath and focusing on God first. I find myself just singing the song Cling to the Call by John Waller so often. I wish that I would have learned by now to trust God first and not freak out. God has been so faithful all my life and hasn't changed now in the middle of this circumstance. So I thank those of you who are just so encouraging and reminding me/us to stay focused on God, His promises and truths. Everyday, every hour, every minute and second we have to make that decision to keep our eyes, minds and thoughts on Him. Before I continue, I have to share the wonderful words of John Waller's song.
I was walking on water just a week ago
Not a care in the world even a day ago
Not sure what happened but all of the sudden I saw the crashing waves all around me
And once again I had to choose To put my eyes back on You
My eyes back on You And You said...
Cling to the call Cling to the peace that guards your heart
Cling to the promise Though you stumble you won't fall
I will uphold you now just trust me with all
Just look at me and I will lead you as you Cling to the call
I could stand without wavering just an hour ago
I could not deny You even a moment ago
Not sure what happened but three times denied You
And once again I've gotta choose To put my eyes back on You
My eyes back on You
Now once again I trust You're leading me
I choose to lean not On my understanding,
Lord And I will sing as I cling to the call…
Awe, such a great song...I just wish that I was to a point in my walk that my eyes are glued on Him and that I never look away. I love how He is so trustworthy and dependable yet hate I'm not the same for Him...I'm trying but not there yet. It makes you realize that there is so much more growing and refining that has to take place. As long as we are faithful and take it one step at a time, He will be there to guide you no matter what.
I had an appointment on Friday. Baby's heartbeat is still strong and the baby still likes to move about. I get a kick out of seeing my stomach change shapes depending on how the baby positions itself. Dr. Wheet even said that looking at numbers and growth everything looks great. If it weren't for the ultrasounds he wouldn't think that anything was wrong.
We also had a really good talk...one that I haven't been ready to have with him, but I guess it was coming sooner than later. He asked me how I was mentally doing. I told him that we are doing really well and at perfect peace with everything. He said that he is amazed with how we are handling this situation. I told him that honestly it's because God is good and so many people, literally thousands of people are lifting us up daily in prayer. He then said that he's been praying for us too. He then asked me what I was thinking. I didn't understand what he was asking. (I've also been trying to guard myself and not get into a big "God" and "belief" vs. “statistics” and “science” conversation with him up to this point). He then said, are you hoping for a miracle or what are you thinking? I looked at him and said, yes we are praying for a miracle. God created this whole universe and everything in it, He created us, giving my child the parts that are missing is nothing to Him, so yes, we are praying for a miracle. He then said Kristin, the statistics are not in your favor (in my head I just said, my God is bigger than your statistics) but I can't explain why people who have terminal cancer are healed when they shouldn't be. I can't answer their questions of what happened, and I don't feel the need to. All I know is that I wouldn't mind being wrong with the diagnosis of your baby...I'm hoping for a miracle. It was just a really good conversation, one that I wasn't prepared for. I got home and told Jon what happened and he said, did you tell Dr. Wheet that he wasn't wrong with the diagnosis, Jesus just healed our baby? I didn't tell him that even though I thought it...I just thought that I would wait to tell him that when he's holding our perfect and healthy baby. Another two weeks until the next appointment.
Thank you again so much for your prayers. We are humbled by them and all of the love you’ve shown to us. At times it's very overwhelming and hard to understand why so many love us especially the ones who have committed to pray for us that don't even know us. All I know is that each and every one of you is demonstrating God's love. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! Love, Jon and Kristin and baby LeVan (who will be here in just 5 quick weeks.)
I was walking on water just a week ago
Not a care in the world even a day ago
Not sure what happened but all of the sudden I saw the crashing waves all around me
And once again I had to choose To put my eyes back on You
My eyes back on You And You said...
Cling to the call Cling to the peace that guards your heart
Cling to the promise Though you stumble you won't fall
I will uphold you now just trust me with all
Just look at me and I will lead you as you Cling to the call
I could stand without wavering just an hour ago
I could not deny You even a moment ago
Not sure what happened but three times denied You
And once again I've gotta choose To put my eyes back on You
My eyes back on You
Now once again I trust You're leading me
I choose to lean not On my understanding,
Lord And I will sing as I cling to the call…
Awe, such a great song...I just wish that I was to a point in my walk that my eyes are glued on Him and that I never look away. I love how He is so trustworthy and dependable yet hate I'm not the same for Him...I'm trying but not there yet. It makes you realize that there is so much more growing and refining that has to take place. As long as we are faithful and take it one step at a time, He will be there to guide you no matter what.
I had an appointment on Friday. Baby's heartbeat is still strong and the baby still likes to move about. I get a kick out of seeing my stomach change shapes depending on how the baby positions itself. Dr. Wheet even said that looking at numbers and growth everything looks great. If it weren't for the ultrasounds he wouldn't think that anything was wrong.
We also had a really good talk...one that I haven't been ready to have with him, but I guess it was coming sooner than later. He asked me how I was mentally doing. I told him that we are doing really well and at perfect peace with everything. He said that he is amazed with how we are handling this situation. I told him that honestly it's because God is good and so many people, literally thousands of people are lifting us up daily in prayer. He then said that he's been praying for us too. He then asked me what I was thinking. I didn't understand what he was asking. (I've also been trying to guard myself and not get into a big "God" and "belief" vs. “statistics” and “science” conversation with him up to this point). He then said, are you hoping for a miracle or what are you thinking? I looked at him and said, yes we are praying for a miracle. God created this whole universe and everything in it, He created us, giving my child the parts that are missing is nothing to Him, so yes, we are praying for a miracle. He then said Kristin, the statistics are not in your favor (in my head I just said, my God is bigger than your statistics) but I can't explain why people who have terminal cancer are healed when they shouldn't be. I can't answer their questions of what happened, and I don't feel the need to. All I know is that I wouldn't mind being wrong with the diagnosis of your baby...I'm hoping for a miracle. It was just a really good conversation, one that I wasn't prepared for. I got home and told Jon what happened and he said, did you tell Dr. Wheet that he wasn't wrong with the diagnosis, Jesus just healed our baby? I didn't tell him that even though I thought it...I just thought that I would wait to tell him that when he's holding our perfect and healthy baby. Another two weeks until the next appointment.
Thank you again so much for your prayers. We are humbled by them and all of the love you’ve shown to us. At times it's very overwhelming and hard to understand why so many love us especially the ones who have committed to pray for us that don't even know us. All I know is that each and every one of you is demonstrating God's love. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! Love, Jon and Kristin and baby LeVan (who will be here in just 5 quick weeks.)
Update 01/22/2010
7 weeks until we see that the Doctors and specialist WERE correct that there WAS nothing humanly possible to be done for our child and that at the human level, all is lost. HOWEVER, we'll see that to God be ALL glory, honor, and praise, our child HAS been healed and HE is greater than our understanding and IS worthy to give our COMPLETE and TOTAL trust with EVERYTHING in our lives!!!! I pray that those who not know Him personally, will be reached through this awesome journey He's led us on!!! March 16, 2010 is quickly approaching!!! Thank you to everyone who has joined and is joining us in prayer for our precious little child! Our God is larger than any mountain we'll ever encounter in this lifetime!!! – Jonathan
I had another doctor’s appointment on Friday. Nothing has changed with the diagnosis with out baby. The doctor was considering putting me on restrictions since he doesn’t know what to exactly expect with the diagnosis that was given. He keeps saying that I can go into labor at anytime and who knows what this baby is going to do. He then said, BUT this baby is acting like it’s normal, so there isn’t a need for restrictions. It was all I could do not to scream it’s because of God’s grace and healing power that my baby is acting normal because it is normal!!! Instead, I kept it to myself.
God has been so gracious to us during this time. If He were to ask us to go through this again, we would in a heartbeat. We feel so honored to have been able to go through this process and to know Him more. This truly has been a joyful and peaceful time in our lives and we wouldn’t change it for anything. We understand why this makes no sense at all. At times it’s hard to share or even put into words all we are experiencing. You’ve read about our journey and have prayed for us and we thank you so much and are so blessed. As you know, we’ve been searching, learning, growing, praying, reading, fasting and so on. But what you don’t know is that ALL of this has not been for healing of our precious baby, it’s because God has been and is revealing himself more and more to us and we are excited to learn more and receive a greater understand of Him and His Word. Yes, we want our baby healed, but more than that we want a deeper and more intimate relationship with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. That is what is the most important with this situation is seeking God’s face because He is worthy of our honor, worship and praise.
We’ve been listening to a lot of songs lately and right now, I think this song by Hillsong United- From the Inside Out best describes where we are.
A thousand times I've failed Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again Still I'm caught in your grace
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul,
Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out
Another song that has just been our “theme” song, if you will and has been such an encouragement is by Kutless titled What Faith Can Do.
Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water It’ll be alright
Life is so much more Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way If you keep believing
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance (That’s what faith can do)
When the world says you can’t It’ll tell you that you can!
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes You will have the strength to rise
If you need an encouraging cd to listen to that speaks to every area of your life, I encourage you to get the cd by John Waller titled While I’m waiting. There is not a weak song on this cd, it is amazing!!! If you are going through any type of trials I just encourage you to seek God with all your heart and lean not on your own understandings. If you do this, you will experience an amazing journey. We love each and everyone of you. Love, Jon and Kristin
I had another doctor’s appointment on Friday. Nothing has changed with the diagnosis with out baby. The doctor was considering putting me on restrictions since he doesn’t know what to exactly expect with the diagnosis that was given. He keeps saying that I can go into labor at anytime and who knows what this baby is going to do. He then said, BUT this baby is acting like it’s normal, so there isn’t a need for restrictions. It was all I could do not to scream it’s because of God’s grace and healing power that my baby is acting normal because it is normal!!! Instead, I kept it to myself.
God has been so gracious to us during this time. If He were to ask us to go through this again, we would in a heartbeat. We feel so honored to have been able to go through this process and to know Him more. This truly has been a joyful and peaceful time in our lives and we wouldn’t change it for anything. We understand why this makes no sense at all. At times it’s hard to share or even put into words all we are experiencing. You’ve read about our journey and have prayed for us and we thank you so much and are so blessed. As you know, we’ve been searching, learning, growing, praying, reading, fasting and so on. But what you don’t know is that ALL of this has not been for healing of our precious baby, it’s because God has been and is revealing himself more and more to us and we are excited to learn more and receive a greater understand of Him and His Word. Yes, we want our baby healed, but more than that we want a deeper and more intimate relationship with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. That is what is the most important with this situation is seeking God’s face because He is worthy of our honor, worship and praise.
We’ve been listening to a lot of songs lately and right now, I think this song by Hillsong United- From the Inside Out best describes where we are.
A thousand times I've failed Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again Still I'm caught in your grace
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul,
Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out
Another song that has just been our “theme” song, if you will and has been such an encouragement is by Kutless titled What Faith Can Do.
Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water It’ll be alright
Life is so much more Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way If you keep believing
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance (That’s what faith can do)
When the world says you can’t It’ll tell you that you can!
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes You will have the strength to rise
If you need an encouraging cd to listen to that speaks to every area of your life, I encourage you to get the cd by John Waller titled While I’m waiting. There is not a weak song on this cd, it is amazing!!! If you are going through any type of trials I just encourage you to seek God with all your heart and lean not on your own understandings. If you do this, you will experience an amazing journey. We love each and everyone of you. Love, Jon and Kristin
01/04/2010
This morning as I was getting ready for my doctor's appointment I said outloud "God, I think it would be really funny for Dr. Wheet to feel a really strong kick from the baby". I just laughed to myself but didn't ask this from God. Well, at the appointment as Dr. Wheet was listening to baby's heartbeat the baby kicked really hard. The look on Dr. Wheet's face was priceless. (I'm sure this is common for "healthy" babies, but I don't think he was expecting as strong of a kick from mine). Anyways, Dr. Wheet didn't get to experience just one good and strong kick, it was more like 5 or 6 strong kicks. It was all I could do not to just laugh and cry at the same time. God is so good and gives us just what we need at all times.As far as the diagnosis goes, nothing medically speaking has changed. I'm at 30 weeks now so only 10 more weeks. Thank you for your continued prayers and words of encouragement. Love, Jon and Kristin
Update 12/04/2009
Dear Friends,
We thank you again from the bottom of our hearts for your thoughts and prayers. You have no idea how your prayers are carrying us through and just helping to shape our attitudes and have the right perspectives in this situation.
James 1:2-8 says Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
I have often wondered during bad times how can you have a good attitude let alone joy. I have always been a realist and more so a pessimistic realist. I would rather dwell on the reality of the situation in a negative way. Now Jon is also a realist, but very optimistic. Through prayer, friends challenging us and a lot of digging in God’s word I have learned that I need to be optimistic through all circumstances because God is Good, His Word is True and It Works in Our Lives. ;) We have been blessed to meet many new friends through our circumstance. Those friendships have helped to plant seeds to push us forward and introduce us to God’s will for all of his children’s lives.
For awhile we had been struggling with complacency. We knew that we desired more, but didn’t know how to get out of this rut. Through our baby’s diagnosis it has plunged us forward into a new world of discovering God’s love for us and His desires for all of His children’s lives. Our marriage has NEVER been stronger and more fulfilling. Our faith and relationship with our Lord Jesus Christ has NEVER been stronger. We have so much thirst and hunger to know Him more. We have pure joy in this circumstance and it is unexplainable…I can’t even begin to describe it. It is truly from the Lord. We still hear people say to us “I’m so sorry that you are going through this…” and I just reply please don’t be…this honestly is the best thing that could have ever happened to us. We wouldn’t change it for the world. Be happy for us. I know…this is craziness, but this is the Lord working in us and through us! (We know that people just don’t know what to say. If I had a friend going through this, I think that I would be saying the same thing…well, at least I would have).
With all that said, we have come to learn some things about our Heavenly Father, His Character, His Word and promises to us.
1.A crisis is when you need to focus your attention on what God has already provided for you so you can press forward. I wish I would have kept a prayer journal to just be able to look back and see in writing all of the prayer requests God has answered and how He is always faithful. This little tool of having a prayer journal would have helped to increase my faith and trust in the Lord by seeing how He has worked in my life in the past. I know He will ALWAYS provide for me in the future, but sometimes looking at what He has already done helps you keep your focus. Even though I don’t have all my prayers documented by specific circumstances, I know that He is faithful and true and will always provide.
2.Mark 11:22-23 Jesus said to them “Have faith in God constantly. Truly, I tell you, whoever says to this mountain, be lifted up and thrown into the sea and does not doubt at all in his heart, be believes that what he says will take place; it will be done for him. I’ve heard these verses since I was young and I have always believed it, but I don’t think that I fully understood it. The mountains that we are telling to move are the circumstances in our lives. 3.We believe that if God said it, He meant it! And if He said it, it’s True. And if He said it, it works and all we have to do is have faith in it. If you have faith in it, it works and if you don’t then it doesn’t. I’ve really had to search my heart about this. I have always said “I believe the Bible to be God’s Word and it is true, without fault/mistakes. BUT If I truly believe the Word of God to be true, perfect and without fault then God means what He says. He is perfect, He does not lie. If only parts of what God says is true, then this would change the nature of God and who He is. So when He says in Isaiah 55:11 so shall my word be that goes out of my mouth; it shall not return me void/empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it. If God tells us anything in the Bible, we are to believe it and claim it for our own. It is ours through being a child of God’s. It is not our place to put God in a box because we are afraid of being disappointed of the result or out of fear that He may not answer our request. He says all we have to do is ask in His son’s name and it is given. Also in John 12:12-14 it says “Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do because I go to My Father. And whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask anything in My name, I will do it. All we have to do is ask and believe. We may need to be persistent because the devil wants to distract and discourage us. But God is faithful and always true to His word because He is the Amen…The Truth. So, this is just a little tidbit on where Jon and I are right now.
For the month of November we had NO TV NOVEMBER in our home. We spent this time in prayer and reading about God or just listening to praise and worship music. (I think that NO TV NOVEMBER is going to carry out into other months as well). A couple of weeks ago I went to Hobby Lobby to look for a scrapbook to begin to put all the e-mails and cards of encouragement in. I started off looking at fabric for the baby to make a blanket and was completely fine. I was so excited. Then I came to the scrapbook aisle. I was so overwhelmed by the choices and caught myself saying “if the baby was a boy I’d pick this one, or if it was a girl, I’d pick this one”. Well the lack of my control in this situation and getting what I want got the best of me. I started crying (having an adult pregnancy/hormonal temper tantrum) and high stepped it as fast as I could to the bathroom. I stood in there sobbing for 5 minutes over a stupid scrapbook and the fact that I couldn’t get exactly what I wanted. After I told myself to suck it up and that a neutral scrapbook was just fine, I stopped crying. I went back out and got a very cute scrapbook, but one I wouldn’t normally choose. It was off to the paper section. Again, I became a little discouraged because I couldn’t find what I wanted. I started to tear up, but said a little prayer…”God, I could use a little hug right now”. As I looked up, a dear friend from college’s parents came down the aisle. I said hi to them and told them that I think that God sent to be in the aisle at this very minute, that they were an answer to my prayers. And then we hugged and cried again in the middle of Hobby Lobby.
So, if you ever wonder who cries at Hobby Lobby, one of the happiest places on earth for adult women…I do! God is teaching me so much through this pregnancy and one of the biggest is to stop being such a control freak. Nothing about this pregnancy has gone as I have planned. All control has been taken away from me. The only thing that is left for me to control is my choices. So, I’m choosing to praise and trust in God and His Word and pray, pray and pray some more and just keep learning more about Him.
At the same time I was at Hobby Lobby, Jon was at home. Even though it was NO TV NOVEMBER, Jon felt led to turn the TV onto channel 46. Dr. Lester Sumrall was on speaking about healing. It was just what Jon needed to hear at that time. Needless to say, God was working and revealing himself to us that night. Now to make a long story short, we have purchased Dr. Lester Sumrall’s 15 part series on Divine Healing and Human Illness. So every night instead of watching TV, we have been watching sermons from Dr. Sumrall. We laugh because we never thought that we would be watching Dr. Sumrall and his teachings and actually enjoying them. Even though his sermon series is at least 20 years old, it is awesome to see how God’s Word is unchanging through the ages.
I had my last doctor’s appointment last Friday, December 4th. My doctor said that I’m still growing; the baby is growing and has a strong heartbeat. He reassured me that he feels that Jon and I are doing the right thing. He said that if he and his wife were in the same position they’d be doing the same thing. He said that even though the circumstances don’t look good, you just don’t know if your baby is the 1 in a million that is a miracle. (I just smiled and listened and clung to the promises God has given).
I’m currently reading a book called Supernatural Healing by Sid Roth & Linda Josef. A lot about receiving healing has to do with forgiveness. I’ve learned that it’s not just a feeling, but a command. (Duh! As human’s we seem to miss the boat on this one). It’s not based on another person deserving it. If you are judging them, you are taking God’s role. It is so freeing to just let go and forgive. Why take on something that you don’t need to own…it’s not your place to hold onto. What use to seem so important to hold onto really has no value. I think that going through a crisis helps you to see more clearly on what truly in important and holding a grudge and not forgiving is so not worth the time and energy.
I’m also learning that there is a difference between miracles and healing. “Many times we look for a miracle and miss the healing. We plant the truth about healing from God’s Word (seed) and believe we are healed. Mark 11:24 says “Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours”. When we do not instantly receive our miracle, we are confused. This then puts us in unbelief. Instead, recognize that a miracle is an instant healing and a healing is a gradual miracle”. So either way, if God has granted us a miracle of instant healing for our baby, then I’ll take it and give God all the glory, but if God is granting us healing for our baby, then we know it is a gradual miracle and God still receives all the glory. Either way, God is Good! His Word is True! And It Works in Our Live.
With much love, Jonathan and Kristin
We thank you again from the bottom of our hearts for your thoughts and prayers. You have no idea how your prayers are carrying us through and just helping to shape our attitudes and have the right perspectives in this situation.
James 1:2-8 says Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
I have often wondered during bad times how can you have a good attitude let alone joy. I have always been a realist and more so a pessimistic realist. I would rather dwell on the reality of the situation in a negative way. Now Jon is also a realist, but very optimistic. Through prayer, friends challenging us and a lot of digging in God’s word I have learned that I need to be optimistic through all circumstances because God is Good, His Word is True and It Works in Our Lives. ;) We have been blessed to meet many new friends through our circumstance. Those friendships have helped to plant seeds to push us forward and introduce us to God’s will for all of his children’s lives.
For awhile we had been struggling with complacency. We knew that we desired more, but didn’t know how to get out of this rut. Through our baby’s diagnosis it has plunged us forward into a new world of discovering God’s love for us and His desires for all of His children’s lives. Our marriage has NEVER been stronger and more fulfilling. Our faith and relationship with our Lord Jesus Christ has NEVER been stronger. We have so much thirst and hunger to know Him more. We have pure joy in this circumstance and it is unexplainable…I can’t even begin to describe it. It is truly from the Lord. We still hear people say to us “I’m so sorry that you are going through this…” and I just reply please don’t be…this honestly is the best thing that could have ever happened to us. We wouldn’t change it for the world. Be happy for us. I know…this is craziness, but this is the Lord working in us and through us! (We know that people just don’t know what to say. If I had a friend going through this, I think that I would be saying the same thing…well, at least I would have).
With all that said, we have come to learn some things about our Heavenly Father, His Character, His Word and promises to us.
1.A crisis is when you need to focus your attention on what God has already provided for you so you can press forward. I wish I would have kept a prayer journal to just be able to look back and see in writing all of the prayer requests God has answered and how He is always faithful. This little tool of having a prayer journal would have helped to increase my faith and trust in the Lord by seeing how He has worked in my life in the past. I know He will ALWAYS provide for me in the future, but sometimes looking at what He has already done helps you keep your focus. Even though I don’t have all my prayers documented by specific circumstances, I know that He is faithful and true and will always provide.
2.Mark 11:22-23 Jesus said to them “Have faith in God constantly. Truly, I tell you, whoever says to this mountain, be lifted up and thrown into the sea and does not doubt at all in his heart, be believes that what he says will take place; it will be done for him. I’ve heard these verses since I was young and I have always believed it, but I don’t think that I fully understood it. The mountains that we are telling to move are the circumstances in our lives. 3.We believe that if God said it, He meant it! And if He said it, it’s True. And if He said it, it works and all we have to do is have faith in it. If you have faith in it, it works and if you don’t then it doesn’t. I’ve really had to search my heart about this. I have always said “I believe the Bible to be God’s Word and it is true, without fault/mistakes. BUT If I truly believe the Word of God to be true, perfect and without fault then God means what He says. He is perfect, He does not lie. If only parts of what God says is true, then this would change the nature of God and who He is. So when He says in Isaiah 55:11 so shall my word be that goes out of my mouth; it shall not return me void/empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it. If God tells us anything in the Bible, we are to believe it and claim it for our own. It is ours through being a child of God’s. It is not our place to put God in a box because we are afraid of being disappointed of the result or out of fear that He may not answer our request. He says all we have to do is ask in His son’s name and it is given. Also in John 12:12-14 it says “Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do because I go to My Father. And whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask anything in My name, I will do it. All we have to do is ask and believe. We may need to be persistent because the devil wants to distract and discourage us. But God is faithful and always true to His word because He is the Amen…The Truth. So, this is just a little tidbit on where Jon and I are right now.
For the month of November we had NO TV NOVEMBER in our home. We spent this time in prayer and reading about God or just listening to praise and worship music. (I think that NO TV NOVEMBER is going to carry out into other months as well). A couple of weeks ago I went to Hobby Lobby to look for a scrapbook to begin to put all the e-mails and cards of encouragement in. I started off looking at fabric for the baby to make a blanket and was completely fine. I was so excited. Then I came to the scrapbook aisle. I was so overwhelmed by the choices and caught myself saying “if the baby was a boy I’d pick this one, or if it was a girl, I’d pick this one”. Well the lack of my control in this situation and getting what I want got the best of me. I started crying (having an adult pregnancy/hormonal temper tantrum) and high stepped it as fast as I could to the bathroom. I stood in there sobbing for 5 minutes over a stupid scrapbook and the fact that I couldn’t get exactly what I wanted. After I told myself to suck it up and that a neutral scrapbook was just fine, I stopped crying. I went back out and got a very cute scrapbook, but one I wouldn’t normally choose. It was off to the paper section. Again, I became a little discouraged because I couldn’t find what I wanted. I started to tear up, but said a little prayer…”God, I could use a little hug right now”. As I looked up, a dear friend from college’s parents came down the aisle. I said hi to them and told them that I think that God sent to be in the aisle at this very minute, that they were an answer to my prayers. And then we hugged and cried again in the middle of Hobby Lobby.
So, if you ever wonder who cries at Hobby Lobby, one of the happiest places on earth for adult women…I do! God is teaching me so much through this pregnancy and one of the biggest is to stop being such a control freak. Nothing about this pregnancy has gone as I have planned. All control has been taken away from me. The only thing that is left for me to control is my choices. So, I’m choosing to praise and trust in God and His Word and pray, pray and pray some more and just keep learning more about Him.
At the same time I was at Hobby Lobby, Jon was at home. Even though it was NO TV NOVEMBER, Jon felt led to turn the TV onto channel 46. Dr. Lester Sumrall was on speaking about healing. It was just what Jon needed to hear at that time. Needless to say, God was working and revealing himself to us that night. Now to make a long story short, we have purchased Dr. Lester Sumrall’s 15 part series on Divine Healing and Human Illness. So every night instead of watching TV, we have been watching sermons from Dr. Sumrall. We laugh because we never thought that we would be watching Dr. Sumrall and his teachings and actually enjoying them. Even though his sermon series is at least 20 years old, it is awesome to see how God’s Word is unchanging through the ages.
I had my last doctor’s appointment last Friday, December 4th. My doctor said that I’m still growing; the baby is growing and has a strong heartbeat. He reassured me that he feels that Jon and I are doing the right thing. He said that if he and his wife were in the same position they’d be doing the same thing. He said that even though the circumstances don’t look good, you just don’t know if your baby is the 1 in a million that is a miracle. (I just smiled and listened and clung to the promises God has given).
I’m currently reading a book called Supernatural Healing by Sid Roth & Linda Josef. A lot about receiving healing has to do with forgiveness. I’ve learned that it’s not just a feeling, but a command. (Duh! As human’s we seem to miss the boat on this one). It’s not based on another person deserving it. If you are judging them, you are taking God’s role. It is so freeing to just let go and forgive. Why take on something that you don’t need to own…it’s not your place to hold onto. What use to seem so important to hold onto really has no value. I think that going through a crisis helps you to see more clearly on what truly in important and holding a grudge and not forgiving is so not worth the time and energy.
I’m also learning that there is a difference between miracles and healing. “Many times we look for a miracle and miss the healing. We plant the truth about healing from God’s Word (seed) and believe we are healed. Mark 11:24 says “Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours”. When we do not instantly receive our miracle, we are confused. This then puts us in unbelief. Instead, recognize that a miracle is an instant healing and a healing is a gradual miracle”. So either way, if God has granted us a miracle of instant healing for our baby, then I’ll take it and give God all the glory, but if God is granting us healing for our baby, then we know it is a gradual miracle and God still receives all the glory. Either way, God is Good! His Word is True! And It Works in Our Live.
With much love, Jonathan and Kristin
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